Emo shit.
Why didn’t you stop me.. Why didn’t you say that you love me? Why didn’t you clarify everything properly with me then? Why didn’t you attempt to come back? So many whys.. All without answers.. Will be left unanswered forever..
Did you really love me then? Did you love me as deeply as I did to you?Did you think that the world will end if I ever leave you? Did you.. at all..
I felt like dying when things happen all of a sudden.. I was the 3rd party, unknowingly..
Today, you came back into my life. After a 1.5 yrs hiatus. You just waltz in. With a simple hi. Into my heart once again. I want to shut that door that you slammed in my place then. I wanna keep it tightly shut. But, my fingers refuse to do my bidding. They wanna find out how have you been. How are you and your new girlfriend. Apparently, you told me you guys are taking a break, broke up. Can I believe you, like I once did, naively?
Are you trying to toy with my feelings, like you once did, 1.5 yrs ago? Or, are you trying to be friendly once again?
I don’t even remember how I got to know you.. just that, we got along really well. You were with Kim then, and you guys broke up. U picked me up from my workplace one day. We went for lunch. or is it dinner?
We had fun, unlike strangers. because we already knew each other from the numerous phone calls and conversations online. Though that was the first time we met, i knew u were the one for me. We got together on that very day. That was silly of me, isnt it? to entrust myself to a stranger, like u.
U made me feel like a princess, a real princess. always pampering me, giving in to me and always being there for me, even though you couldnt really click with my frens. I really thanked you for all those happy memories.
but the pain you brought with you and inflicted on me… has yet to heal.. and i doubt will ever.. i still miss u now and then.. good thing is, we dont have common frens so.. things are not that complicated..
by coming back into my life now.. what are you trying to do/say?
my fragile heart cannot take the pain once more.. i will simply die from the pain.. pls.. stay far away from me.. if you are bringing me pain yet again…
My tears will not be shed for you again.
Rants..
Do I still love you?
Or is it just memories of the sweet sweet past we had?
Or is it just the longing for someone to be there for me?
I can never understand.
How did we end up like this in the first place?
Is it you that I yearn?
Or just another someone I can give my overflowing love to?
Heart vs Brain
He’s back.
Again.
This time, a casual hi did it all.
The flutter in the stomach is back.
I deleted him off the MSN account,
but did not block.
Did not know that he still has mine.
I told myself this 1.5 yrs ago.
I am not going to let him come back into my life.
Not even as a friend.
But somehow,
my fingers just automatically hit the reply button.
Sometimes, the heart just overrule the brain.
Softball..
A sport that I have never try before.
A sport that I have never watch before.
A sport that I thought I will give up after 1 or 2 trainings, as usual.
A sport that brings me much happiness.
A sport that makes me enthusiastic.
A sport that I enjoy playing.
A sport that let me get to know my seniors better.
A sport that let me get to know the others and have them root for us during games.
A sport that have me look forward to trainings.
I didn’t know that a sport cando so many wonderful things.
=D
Global warming..
That little thing about St James..
Just went to St James with my Uni pals last night.
Visited powerhouse.
Music is cool.
However, there is always a but, isn’t it?
Drinks sucks!
Super diluted!
Crowd sucks!
All the old people!!
I guess the average age group there is about 25?
Oh dear, I even saw some executives in their suits on the dance floor.
The experience is a horrible one i guess.
Was kind of terrorized by the girls on the platform too.
Haven’t they got no sense of shame?
All the dirty old men were just ogling at the side,
trying to peep up their miniskirts..
*shakes head in disbelief*
My first visit to St James,
could be my last too.
But,
It is still much better than MoS.
=D
The lame jokes/games and prata after were fun though!
Thanks to Cheryl, Wanjing, Ian, Jason and the drunk Nadia.
=D
You guys are the only thing that rocks last night!
Meme time!~
Well, being the very blur dear-old-me, I did not realised that I was tagged by luvphobia till just a minute ago. =D
So, I shall kindly return the favour by doing the meme!!
List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
(in no ranking order whatsoever)
1) Liverpool jacket from Adidas - Men size S
2) Kenzo Armor perfume
3) Guess bag
4) Liverpool kit from Adidas
5) My special one
Answer the following questions:
1. The person/people who tagged you is/are?
2. Your relationship with him/her is…
An irritating being who enjoy torturing me. =S
3. Your 5 impressions of him/her…
- Super irritating!
- Emo uncle
- Smoke machine
- pian qian one!
- Forever living in his own world.
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you…
Got meh?
5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you…
Feed me.
6. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she will…
Die jia lat jia lat.
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be…
please stop bullying me!
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will…
Die jia lat jia lat also..
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be…
He’s too violent towards me.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is…
Get a fantastic job and realised the dream of getting married at 27.
11. Your overall impression of him/her is…
Though super irrating, but still a nice friend to have.
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
BIMBO!
13. The character you love of yourself are…
Confident.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are…
Gives in too easily.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is…
Myself.
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them…
You guys rocks and I will never forget you! Please get your ass-es out of your houses and meet up soon!!
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you…
Everyone has done this already lah.. As usual, I’m too late.. So the rest of the Meme don’t work for me!
Okies, I’ve finished the meme.
Please get me my presents!!
=D
Superficial?
Was talking to a friend of mine the other day. She was saying, there is this guy in her company that her boss is actively matchmaking her with.
Words of the boss:
A is quite a nice guy what.. Decent chap.. Dont smoke dont drink.. very meticulous.. etc.. just that.. u don take into account of the looks lah..
Wah liew!
I mean, seriously. EVERYBODY cares about looks can! No matter what the girl/guy says.
“Oh, looks do not matter to me.”
That is so not true can!
At least a passable look can.
How can you stand looking at someone whom you find hideous and still sweet talk that person?
Come on, if looks really do not matter, please go and date a toad.
I mean, I agree that love plays a very big part in a relationship, and note that I said someone YOU find hideous, not others. Hence, as long as the other party is someone you can accept, it is okay, regardless of what the others says.
But the final line is still:
Looks do matter, to a certain extent.
update: There are people out there who dates others who are not that good looking, but these people who lack in the looks department usually made it up with character. They are simply super nice people can! However, these does not apply to all.
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday BFF!!!
Known you since we were 17…
2 years have fly by so fast…
Time waits for no man..
indeed..
No regrets having you as a friend..
One who walks me home regardless of the time of the day..
One who is always a phone call away..
One who is just 3 mins walk away..
One who will play mahjong with me just because I am bored..
One whom I will protect fiercely too..
Thanks BFF..
For being there for me..
All these times..
Happy 19th birthday..
Though the celebration that we had at Zouk was not fantastic..
But..
It is the thoughts that count after all..
Welcome back to SG!
And..
Enjoy your last year of being in the tens..
=D
