Rotten
Deep in the night, amidst the things going on around me.
Feelings rage and engulf me.
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The biggest obstacles in my life is facing me.
The exam begins on 2 November 2006.
I am not prepared.
Not the least bit.
How to survive?
I seriously need all the good luck charms
And well-wishes now.
These are the things that can tide me over.
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Freedom day awaits me.
The key to my future is being cast within the next 3 weeks.
Will I get the universal passport?
Or just the passport to our neighbours’?
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Enjoyment is what I had for weeks before.
Toil is what I will for weeks ahead.
Rot is what I will for months after.
Luxury or regrets will I get after?
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I have had many regrets throughout my 18 years.
Especially so within the past year.
Hope that none is to come in the following year.
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This is the time that I really need you,
To be there for me.
To be by my side.
I cannot do this alone.
